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Tuesday, August 21, 2012


TODAY for the first time in weeks
I was able to get out and "walker"
about town. Many people don't think
twice about waking up alive each day,
being able to walk, having a home,
healthy loved ones, (i.e. naturally, for
us this includes guinea pigs!) and so
many of us take so much for granted.
The most recent bout of illness here 
brought me to my knees: physically,
emotionally, and spiritually because it
became undeniably obvious that to live 
"independently" at home with the piggies will require in-home healthcare support and 
- far harder to accept - that transitioning from the hospital to home may, at times, require brief stays in a convalescent facility receiving physical therapy and learning to walk again before coming home...
I did a whole mess'o'cryin' this round, lemme confess. LOTS OF CRYING. These past weeks there were times when it was definitely was not safe to be here alone. I wouldn't/couldn't board the piggies nor trust myself to any kind of "facility."
 Often, though, I felt afraid and alone.

Oh so many dear ones sent love, comfort, laughter, and all "the right stuff!"
From the U.K. and Bavaria 
to India and the U.S.A :
Good vibes, phone calls, emails, prayers, unexpected packages really too beautiful to
open, OH BABY, friends, you rocked the house!

~*~ Perhaps independence includes the wisdom to know when to ask for help and a willingness to accept it graciously with humility and gratitude? 

 One ought know when to surrender. 
Fighting, I lost.

Today, I allowed:
And It Was GOOD.
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  1. Even the brief moments count, perhaps more when they are few and far between. Glad you were able to get out!

    1. Thanks, Ms. A. I left a comment to you on another recent post. It was a GREAT DAY! Got a vegan crepe, went to the best and my favorite cafe, sat outside reading David Sedaris article in The New Yorker (he's so funny!) sipped my latte, it was very cool and breezy...and that was AWESOME. Drew a little. Had my drumsticks in my artbag (not sure why yet...but who cares?) and loved being alive. Haven't been able to say that for awhile. So THIS was EPIC! And thank you for "being there," the crepe-maker was to be featured in this blog as our OlympiG chef once I figure out how to get him from the Smart Phone to my laptop. Yeah, THAT'S GONNA HAPPEN! lOVE OUT!

  2. Sounds like a great day. I am so happy you got out, & enjoyed yourself.

    1. Wish you and Millie Bea and Almond Joy were with us!

  3. Ingrid and Co. ...August 22, 2012 at 12:05 AM

    dearest chana ....
    always here for you ....
    from so far away.
    we love you.

    1. Ingrid, that means the world to me! Thank you...always thinking of you wishing for your best life to begin you!

  4. What a beautiful photo :)

    And what a great day you had, out and about, enjoying your creeps, lattes, and watching the world go by! Wish I could have been there with you x

    1. OH YOU WERE! For that is when I made you all the little videos that I may never figure out how to send! You so WERE HERE WITH ME!