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Monday, September 3, 2012


Taylor Dock, kind of a "locals' secret" has become my place for walking meditations. These are strange days, indeed: tapering off pain medications harder to withdraw from than heroin. 
Why did no one tell me?

Since January, I am tapering off nearly all pain
and anti-seizure medication (taken to help prevent chronic, daily migraine) due to contraindications
and an unusual heart condition, a fifth electrical
pathway in my heart...the only way to survive the
process is to WALK IT OFF. I didn't know how. With Nordic walking poles, determination, discipline and grit to walk every day or nearly
so, I feel transformed - at least while out.
Once home, it's the shakes, pain, mood swings...
severe fatigue, weakness, dizziness, vertigo, nausea,
falling, passing out, ad nauseum. This process will
continue for at least another year.

Walking, yoga, and meditation are saving me. 

My friends are saving me.
The guinea pigs rescue me!
Deep in meditation, surrounded by the San Juan Islands, nothing exists but pure, unadulterated exhilaration that I can walk again!
So many cannot, and those who can often take it for granted unless they, too, have struggled back to the world of the Living from the Brink...Here, filled with joy and unending gratitude,
Heaven descends to Earth with Grace Endless.
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  1. Talk Happiness ...
    Talk Faith ....
    Talk Health ....
    Say you are well ....
    And all is well with you ...
    And God shall hear your words ....
    And make them true ....

    1. Oh! My Most Precious Ingrid! How are you here as I write this? Walk with me, let the stars on your cheeks brighten these grey days with Light and the love you so liberally gift us all? Surely you are walking with me, surely you know that?!

    2. soulmates are there for each other .....

    3. (((hugs, my star-faced Bavarian sister)))

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    1. And YOU will be the one helping me share it on this !@#? blog!!! Thank you for being the wind beneath my wings, particularly letting me know that readers want to know the blogger behind the posts! WHO KNEW I WASN'T A GUINEA PIG? lol

  3. You can do it, I know you can. It will be hard, a challenge, but when you have freed yourself of these meds you will feel like a new woman! On the way it will be an uphill struggle and at times you will wonder why bother . . . but keep going, breathe deeply and KNOW it will all be worth it in the end!

    Walk and walk and walk! Exercise and diet will help!

    And remember, we are all here for you, willing you on xxxxxxx

    1. EEEEEEEEEEK! I don't think anymore "this will take at least a year" for the two days I have no control over are yesterday and tomorrow. So, let's walk, cycle, photograph, play with our beloved animal companions and LIVE FOR AND IN THE PRESENT! After, all it IS a "present!" Anita, SPECIAL THANK YOU, (you know why!) :)

  4. What a beautiful place. How can you not be inspired to tread that walkway and breath in the sea. Your journey made me think of Jerry Lewis' telethon and him singing "Walk On". Smooch!

    1. Don't make me cry now...oops, too late, but it's O.K.
      NOW COME HERE RIGHT NOW AND WIPE THESE TEARS OFF MY FACE and I'll treat you to a latte! Miss you.