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Tuesday, February 14, 2012


Raj Mahal drank fresh wheatgrass and carrot juice tonight, 
sleeping with me until I placed him back into his cage
just now at 1 a.m. He immediately went to the spot where
CoconutPie had gone to die and dwelt there awhile
before settling alone in their shared hut, not moving.
I do not think he has the will to live anymore and
would be surprised to find him alive in the morning
despite all efforts to save his life. Without Coconut,
he has lost the will to live and going first off to her
designated dying place to find her and not finding
her was heartbreaking. It appears he has chosen
to join her, his brother Taj, and the rest of the herd.
My sleep is sad already.
Good night, dear friends.
I have given myself permission to fall
apart tomorrow.
Thank you for your support, love, and compassion.

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  1. Ingrid and Helmut and the MeerisFebruary 14, 2012 at 1:07 AM

    STAY HERE ...... !!!!!!!
    we love you.

  2. I am not going to tear myself limb to limb, just go into the
    woods on the mountain to scream and cry...if no one else is
    around...if I was in Bavaria there would be places to do that, too,
    wouldn't there? I love you so much!

  3. don't give up ....
    please, don't give up ....
    LOVE from all of us here in bavaria ....
    where the deep green forests are ....
    our hearts and love flies over to YOU.

  4. I know you heart is broken and I wish I had words, but there are none. My tears fall at the profound loss and for you my friend. I only hope you can find some solace with Yummy and Vinny. Go yell at the mountain and the trees, they can take it. Please come back to us all who love you.

  5. Wrapping my virtual arms around you, & wishing I could be there to hug you. Nothing I can say will heal your heart, but know I love you, & my heart breaks for you.

  6. I am crying with you . . . we haven't stopped thinking about you and sending our prayers, not for a second xxxxx